It's a long road to face this alone.....
Dear you,
Today I am writing this for you to read. If you are reading this, it would be the last and only I have written since you departed from me exactly one year ago. You sent me messages and I've responded to any of your messages. Now I can feel the strange of you and it totally different as usual. I have to think, and guess it means it was simply a summer fling. So I think I should rather stop dreaming on you again and again.
Remember when we first met? it happened too fast until I'd realize that i fall to you. how I wish not to fall but I can't, because I'm a human being . How I wish just to be a robot no such feelings but I can't, because God made me this way.
I loved so much but it hurt. Nothing is in the past to me. Love knows no past tense. You either never loved or never stopped. and I, never stopped.
But, I am truly sorry for whatever it was that I have done to drive you away. I am sorry if it seemed I 'm not a good friend to you and not even the best for you, may be didn't love you enough, but I can assure you that I loved you more than I ever have. Thank you for laying in the street with me, thank you for being a bird and fly away. Thank you for your kindness and teaching me about life. I want you to know that I am grateful for the person you are and the person you shaped me to be. In everything I do, I will think of you. And I hope you’re thinking of me too. Smile at what we had and smile at who you are. Live everyday to its fullest and be genuinely happy. That is what I wish for you. Happiness.
I bear in mind no resentment towards you. I only have love and I wish the best things in the world for you. At the same time, I selfishly wish things could have ended on a different way. I am not bitter, nor am I angry. You're so good and I find no fault for you as I can only see beautiful things when I look at you and only think beautiful thoughts about you and for you. Why? Because I said so.
Sometimes…
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for somehow people are
I wish I have power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world for you
But I think it may be just in my dream
just because now I know who I am!
Love always,
it's me! only me... not you, not her and not anyone else.
