how I hate the way you make me feel!!!!

It's a long road to face this alone.....

Dear you,

Today I am writing this for you to read. If you are reading this, it would be the last and only I have written since you departed from me exactly one year ago. You sent me messages and I've responded to any of your messages. Now I can feel the strange of you and it totally different as usual. I have to think, and guess it means it was simply a summer fling. So I think I should rather stop dreaming on you again and again.

Remember when we first met? it happened too fast until I'd realize that i fall to you. how I wish not to fall but I can't, because I'm a human being . How I wish just to be a robot no such feelings but I can't, because God made me this way.

I loved so much but it hurt. Nothing is in the past to me. Love knows no past tense. You either never loved or never stopped. and I, never stopped.

But, I am truly sorry for whatever it was that I have done to drive you away. I am sorry if it seemed I 'm not a good friend to you and not even the best for you, may be didn't love you enough, but I can assure you that I loved you more than I ever have. Thank you for laying in the street with me, thank you for being a bird and fly away. Thank you for your kindness and teaching me about life. I want you to know that I am grateful for the person you are and the person you shaped me to be. In everything I do, I will think of you. And I hope you’re thinking of me too. Smile at what we had and smile at who you are. Live everyday to its fullest and be genuinely happy. That is what I wish for you. Happiness.

I bear in mind no resentment towards you. I only have love and I wish the best things in the world for you. At the same time, I selfishly wish things could have ended on a different way. I am not bitter, nor am I angry. You're so good and I find no fault for you as I can only see beautiful things when I look at you and only think beautiful thoughts about you and for you. Why? Because I said so.

Sometimes…

I wish I was smart

I wish I made cures for somehow people are

I wish I have power

I wish I could lead

I wish I could change the world for you

But I think it may be just in my dream

just because now I know who I am!

Love always,

it's me! only me... not you, not her and not anyone else.

Title changed

Whoa! fyi, I've just change my blog title to 'My Sweet November'. Will look forward on what to write next.... just wait ya!=)) ^_^

What's the hell with my neighbor???!

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I'm back again it's been so long

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